Monday started week 34 of my Transformation Day 2012 challenge, and to be completely honest, I’m struggling. Losing weight eating low-carb/Paleo is easy; changing life-long bad habits is hard. I’m not throwing in the towel though. I can’t!
I stepped on the scale this morning, and I weighed 254.8 pounds. I’d been avoiding the scale because I knew it was going to be “bad news”, but now that I know the damage, I can move forward.
I’m really struggling with some emotional issues, to be honest. Part of it has to do with the time of year. Part of it has to do with “letting my guard down” where my food is concerned. When I get into the grain and the sugar, I’m just not right in my head, and it’s hard to pull out of that. I know I can do it, but I have to set myself up for success.
We’ve spent more money than I’d imagined when it came to starting laying hens here at the homestead, so that has impacted the food budget somewhat. I’ll have to play very carefully for the next little bit, but having “organic” pastured eggs at home is going to make it all worth it. And those little girls are just so darned cute! We’re all quite excited here where “the girls” are concerned.
As spring approaches, it’ll be easier for me to pull on the resources of my community. Feeling less lonely and feeling more purpose-driven really helps one to put things into perspective, and that’s what I’ll be working on to help get things back on track.
I’ll also be concentrating more on exercise. I surprised myself this past weekend by climbing the fire tower at Brown County State Park, but it was hard work, and two days later, I’m still sore. Exercise is crucial; I know that. I’m only kidding myself if I think that I can get healthy without intentional exercise. It’s getting easier though.
I’ll do better at keeping everyone updated. When I started struggling, I quit sharing, and that made it “easier” to struggle. With some accountability, it’ll be easier to get things headed in the right direction again, and I’m always optimistic. I can do this, and I thank you folks for walking with me along the way.