I have eleven weeks under my belt in this Transformation Day 2012 challenge, and to be honest, I’m having a hard time writing this week’s update. I’m not feeling as optimistic today as I have in these past weeks.
The scale showed 262.4 pounds this week. That means that I’m down .4 pounds from last week for a total of 16.4 pounds lost in the past 11 weeks. On Saturday, I saw a low of 261, but I’m having issues with water retention again.
Progress is so slow. I’m trying to keep things in perspective, but I’m still dealing with some health issues that are frustrating me, and I feel like those issues are holding back progress with my weight loss. Part of this challenge is about losing weight, but the bigger part of it is about getting healthy. There are issues that I can’t solve to get healthy without a skilled diagnostician, and my current doctor hasn’t been open to hearing my concerns. He’s blamed my issues on diagnosed sleep apnea, and I know my current symptoms go far beyond sleep apnea. I feel frustrated and helpless, so I have to figure out how to take control and get things headed in the right direction again.
I’m not interested in eating off plan. My food isn’t at all the issue. My blood sugar hasn’t been as low as I’d expect, and my exhaustion is making it nearly impossible for me to function. I thought that iron supplements were helping, but I’m pretty certain they’re not now. Being a wife, a mother, and a friend requires a lot of energy, and I don’t even have it for myself let alone the folks that I love. I’m at a loss as to where to turn.
Maybe I’ll make some progress this week at finding someone who can help me get to the bottom of why I feel so bad. Before I got my eating on track, I felt worse, but I didn’t much care. Now that I’m eating well, I feel better, but I still feel awful. I know I have some thyroid issues, and if I can find a doctor who can actually diagnose the various issues that I can’t fix with a healthy diet, that’ll help. We’ll see what progress I can make to that end this week.
Keep on keepin’ on. That’s what I’m doing. One foot in front of the other, right?
I understand your frustration! Especially about how difficult it is to use the medical industry (cause that’s what it is) to get healthy. But none of this is your fault. Given your small weight loss on what is really a good ‘diet’ it’s crystal clear that you are severely insulin resistant, and that good food alone will not solve your problems. But help IS available. Ironically enough, on another blog. Go to http://www.sugarfreegoodies.wordpress.com/2011/03/15/hello-world and start reading. Light bulbs will pop for you all over the place, and you will learn what you need to do to start getting healthy again, including the metabolic blood tests that will pin down once and for all precisely where YOUR hormonal signaling has broken. That’s the first step to getting better.
I wish you well!
SugarFree